“My own Jesus–what You ask it is beyond me–I can hardly understand half of the things You want–I am unworthy–I am sinful–I am weak. Go Jesus and find a more worthy soul, a more generous one.
“You have become My Spouse for My Love–you have come to India for Me. The thirst you had for souls brought you so far. Are you afraid now to take one more step for your Spouse–for Me–for souls? Is your generosity grown cold? Am I second to you? You did not die for souls–that is why you don’t care what happens to them. Your heart was never drowned in sorrow as was My mother’s. We both gave our all for souls–and you? You are afraid, that you will lose your vocation–you will become a secular–you will be wanting in perseverance. No–your vocation is to love and suffer and save souls and by taking the step you will fulfill My Heart’s desire for you. You will dress in simple Indian clothes or rather like My mother dressed–simple and poor. Your present habit is holy because it is My symbol. Your sarie will become holy because it will be My symbol.
Give me light. Send me Thy own Spirit–which will teach me Thy own Will–which will give me strength to do the things that are pleasing to Thee. Jesus, my Jesus, don’t let me be deceived. If it is You who want this, give proof of it. if not let it leave my soul. I trust you blindly–will you let my soul be lost? I am so afraid Jesus. I am so terribly afraid–let me not be deceived–I am so afraid. This fear shows me how much I love myself. I am afraid of the suffering that will come–through leading the Indian life–clothing like them, eating like them, sleeping like them–living with them and never having anything my way. How much comfort has taken possession of my heart.”
Mother Teresa in Come Be My Light: The Private Writings of the Saint of Calcutta. Edited and with Commentary by Brian Kolodiejchuk, M.C. (New York: Doubleday, 2007) 96-97.