Brother Lawrence: Dependent on divine grace

For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are — yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. Hebrews 4:15-16

“When we enter upon the spiritual we should consider, and examine to the bottom, what we are. And then we should find ourselves worthy of all contempt, and such as do not deserve the name of Christians, subject to all kinds of misery, and numberless accidents, which trouble us, and cause perpetual vicissitudes in our health, in our humors, in our internal and external dispositions: in fine, persons whom God would humble by many pains and labors, as well within as without. After this, we should not wonder that troubles, temptations, oppositions and contradictions, happen to us from men. We ought, on the contrary, to submit ourselves to them, and bear them as long as God pleases, as things highly advantageous to us. That the greater perfection a soul aspires after, the more dependent it is upon divine grace.”

Brother Lawrence (1605-1691) in The Practice of the Presence of God: The Best Rule of Holy Life (London: Epworth Press) 8.

When we look at the idea of examine in the thinking one of the greatest Christian writings of all time, we realize we don’t deserve the label ‘Christian’ and become, more than ever, dependent on divine grace.

We also discover that the only right way to navigate the troubles, temptations, oppositions and contradictions of life is to face them, embrace them, and as Brother Lawrence says, submit ourselves to them and bear them as long as God desires.

I had a great but brief visit to see my parents. Their days are numbered, but they are in a good place for now. When you think about it, days are numbered for all of us. Only those who pause to examine themselves, will make the most of them. Will you?

Now if your countryman becomes destitute and cannot support himself among you, then you are to help him as you would a foreigner or stranger, so that he can continue to live among you. Leviticus 25:35

“This duty is absolutely commanded, and much insisted on, in the Word of God. Where have we any command in the Bible laid down in stronger terms, and in a more peremptory urgent manner, than the command of giving to the poor? We have the same law in a positive manner laid down in Leviticus 25:35. . .

It is mentioned in Scripture, not only as a duty, but a great duty. Indeed it is generally acknowledged to be a duty, to be kind to the needy. But by many it seems not to be looked upon as a duty of great importance. However, it is mentioned in Scripture as one of the greater and more essential duties. . .

It is most reasonable, considering the general state and nature of mankind. This is such as renders it most reasonable that we should love our neighbor as ourselves; for men are made in the image of our God, and on this account are worthy of our love.

A selfish spirit is very unsuitable to the nature and state of mankind. He who is all for himself, and none for his neighbors, deserves to be cut off from the benefit of human society, and to be turned out among wild beasts, to subsist by himself as well as he can. A private niggardly spirit is more suitable for wolves, and other beasts of prey, than for human beings.

To love our neighbor as ourselves is the sum of the moral law respecting our fellow creatures. And to help them, and to contribute to their relief is the most natural expression of this love. It is vain to pretend to a spirit of love to our neighbors, when it is grievous to us to part with anything for their help, when under calamity. . .

Apply these things to yourselves. And inquire whether you do not lie under guilt on account of the neglect of this duty, in withholding that charity which God requires of you towards the needy? You have often been put upon examining yourselves, whether you do not live in some way displeasing to God.”

Jonathan Edwards (1703-1758) in “Of the obligation of Christians to perform the duty of charity to the poor” in Christian Charity or The Duty of Charity to the Poor, Explained and Enforced (1732).

Visiting my parents has me thinking about my own duty as a son to care for my parents. It also makes me think of the larger duty we all have as disciples of Jesus to those needing help. A key to discerning our duty can be found in the word ‘destitute’ in today’s Scripture.

God does not want us to give handouts that create dependency. He wants us to give a hand up to those who need it, when they need it. Notice in the text, the person cannot make it on their own. They need some help. We might say in modern terms, they need a helping hand.

Notice that Edwards, who never minces his words (or never speaks indirectly), calls the person who does not do this duty as possessing a “private niggardly spirit” that is “more suitable for wolves, and other beasts of prey, than for human beings.” Examine your heart along those lines.

At the end of the proverbial day, God sees and knows all. Our job is not to go with the flow as the flow of culture will move us toward that selfish spirit and stinginess and away from Christian duty and caring. With Edwards, let us examine ourselves and do our duty in 2025.

“I have much more to say to you, more than you can now bear.” John 16:12

The Voice of Christ

My child, it is necessary for you to learn many things which you have not yet learned well.

The Disciple

What are they, Lord?

The Voice of Christ

That you conform your desires entirely according to My good pleasure, and be not a lover of self but an earnest doer of My will. Desires very often inflame you and drive you madly on, but consider whether you act for My honor, or for your own advantage. If I am the cause, you will be well content with whatever I ordain. If, on the other hand, any self-seeking lurk in you, it troubles you and weighs you down.

Take care, then, that you do not rely too much on preconceived desire that has no reference to Me, lest you repent later on and be displeased with what at first pleased you and which you desired as being for the best. Not every desire which seems good should be followed immediately, nor, on the other hand, should every contrary affection be at once rejected.

It is sometimes well to use a little restraint even in good desires and inclinations, lest through too much eagerness you bring upon yourself distraction of mind; lest through your lack of discipline you create scandal for others; or lest you be suddenly upset and fall because of resistance from others. Sometimes, however, you must use violence and resist your sensual appetite bravely.

You must pay no attention to what the flesh does or does not desire, taking pains that it be subjected, even by force, to the spirit. And it should be chastised and forced to remain in subjection until it is prepared for anything and is taught to be satisfied with little, to take pleasure in simple things, and not to murmur against inconveniences.”

Thomas à Kempis (1380-1471) in “The Longings of our Hearts must be Examined and Moderated” in The Imitation of Christ.

I took a quick trip to Florida from 1-4 January 2025 to start the year by spending some quality time with my parents, who are doing remarkably well for almost 86 and 84 years of again. In many ways I am examining their situation at Genesis Point in Lake Wales in authentic conversations with them how to best serve them in 2025.

God showed up at dinner last night in a powerful way. Someone in the restaurant, for some reason, felt led of God to pay our dinner tab. We don’t know if it was a person in the next booth who heard our conversation or what, but we sensed that it was God telling us not to worry about expenses related to this strategic time together.

Turning to today’s post, if we read the Gospel of John, by the time we get to chapter 16, from whence I pulled today’s Scripture, we see Jesus alerting the disciples to troubles that would come and exhorting them not to fall away. They could be of good cheer (and we can too) because Jesus has overcome the world.

And Jesus told them that He had more to say to them but it was more than they could bear, so He promised to send the Holy Spirit. It is the Spirit that helps us mortify or put to death the desires of the flesh. Then, I continued my focus on the word “examine” in the thinking of Thomas à Kempis.

I loved this imaginative interchange with Christ. Basically Thomas writes that we need to watch what we desire because our desires can destroy us. For example, if I desire too many cookies, and follow after that desire, I can destroy my health. If I desire to much of anything, it can have the adverse affect. It can go from good to not good.

And I love how Thomas concluded this conversation with Christ. “Be satisfied with little.” Amen to that. “Take pleasure in simple things.” If we don’t we miss the best of life. “And not to murmur against inconveniences.” God help me with that one as I start the year. Join me. And I think this disciplined way will help us live, give, serve, and love more generously.

For if you are living in accord with the flesh, you are going to die; but if by the Spirit you are putting to death the deeds of the body, you will live. Romans 8:13

“Does Christianity encourage morbid introspection? The alternative is much more morbid. Those who do not think about their own sins make up for it by thinking incessantly about the sins of others. It is healthier to think of one’s own. It is the reverse of morbid. It is not even, in the long run, very gloomy.

A serious attempt to repent and really to know one’s own sins is in the long run a lightening and relieving process. Of course, there is bound to be a first dismay and often terror and later great pain, yet that is much less in the long run than the anguish of a mass of unrepented and unexamined sins, lurking in the background of our minds.

It is the difference between the pain of the tooth about which you should go to the dentist, and the simple straight-forward pain which you know is getting less and less every moment when you have had the tooth out.”

C.S. Lewis (1898-1963) in his essay, “Miserable Offenders,” in God in the Dock: Essays on Theology and Ethics, edited by Walter Hooper (Grand Rapids: Eerdmans, 1970) 97.

Happy New Year. My word for 2025 is “examine” and I chose to start this study by going to the writings of my favorite professor of the modern era, C.S. Lewis, to get his thoughts on the topic.

As always, Lewis does not disappoint.

He teaches us that the distinctly Christian work of putting to death the deeds of the flesh through introspection may sound morbid, but the alternative is even more dreadful.

Think about it. If we want to grow in living, giving, serving, and loving generously, we must look honestly at our lives, and as Lewis puts it, really know our own sins and repent.

I ended 2024 by getting a physical. I went to the good doctor Chris Courtney. He’s been a trusted friend for 25 years. I went not because I was sick, but because I want to stay healthy.

I want to be the best possible person physically and spiritually. As Lewis says, the pain will be “much less in the long run than the anguish of a mass of unrepented and unexamined sins.” Join me in the journey of examine this year.

Chris ran blood work to see if I have any issues there but recommended a hearing test and a colonoscopy in 2025. I will plan these tests when not traveling. Today I head to Florida for 3 days.

I will examine my parent’s situation. Examine relates not just to me by my relationships.

God help us examine our ways, return to you in 2025 and be our best possible selves as vessels made ready for service to you. Do this by your Holy Spirit I ask in the name of Jesus. Amen.

And praise God, GTP reached 100 monthly givers by the yesterday. Now we can submit that major grant. I’ll work on edits to that request to hire 2-3 more people on my flights this week.

“I will send my messenger, who will prepare the way before me. Then suddenly the Lord you are seeking will come to His temple; the messenger of the covenant, whom you desire, will come,” says the LORD Almighty. Malachi 3:1

“The divine light always inheres in angelic light, and the angelic light would be irksome and insipid to the soul if God’s light were not enwrapped in it. God wraps and conceals Himself in the angelic light and is only waiting for a chance to creep out and give Himself to the soul.”

Meister Eckhart (c.1260-c.1328) in Sermon 48 in The Complete Mystical Works of Meister Eckhart, Translated and Edited by Maurice O’C. Walshe, Revised with a Foreword by Bernard McGinn (New York: Herder and Herder, 2009) 258.

We can give ourself generously to others because we serve a God who waits “for a chance to creep out and give Himself to the soul.” Let us celebrate His light and love as 2024 ends.

If you want a free devotional to start the year, download a free PDF copy of my most recent work entitled, Waiting, here.

Waiting explores the topic through the lens of various men and women in Scripture whose stories were shaped by waiting and whose examples inspire our own living, giving, serving, and loving.

Let us examine our ways and test them, and let us return to the LORD. Lamentations 3:40

“Let each one examine himself [or herself] to see what he [or she] has done up to now and what more he [or she] ought to accomplish. It is not enough to cite general principles, make resolutions, condemn grace injustices, make denunciations with a certain prophetic daring. None of this will carry any weight unless accompanied in each person by a more lively realization of his [or her] own responsibility and by effective action. It is too easy to make other people responsible for today’s injustices, if, at the same time, we don’t realize that we too are responsible and that a personal conversion is therefore the first necessity.”

Giovanni Battista Enrico Antonio Maria Montini in Octogesima Adveniens, Letter dated 14 May 1971.

I think this will be my word for 2025: examine.

We can trace the spiritual practice of “the examen” back to Ignatius of Loyola (1491-1556). It has five steps.

1. Become aware of God’s presence.
2. Review the day with gratitude.
3. Pay attention to your emotions.
4. Choose one feature of the day and pray from it.
5. Look toward tomorrow.

I think this will fuel my generosity as it will increase the gratitude in my life and help me attend to my emotions better.

Today Montini teaches us that if we examine ourselves it will lead to a “more lively realization” of our own responsibilities.

That change that starts in each of us grows as others embrace it, which leads to change in our contexts. Rather than point fingers we pray and fast.

We become like Ezra and Nehemiah who rebuilt their people through prayer and fasting. I am excited for what God has in store for 2025.

It needs to start within me (and you too if you so decide). Examine.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10

“The Child we have been contemplating in the crib during the last few days is the Redeemer of the world and of everyone in it. He has come in the first place to give us eternal life as something to be looked forward to in this life and to be fully possessed after death. He has become a man to call sinners, to save what was lost, and to make divine life known to all men.

During the years of His public life, our Lord had little to say about the political and social situation of His people, and this in spite of their oppression by the Romans. On different occasions He makes it clear that He does not want to be a political Messiah nor a liberator from the yoke of Rome. He came to give us the freedom of the sons of God: freedom from the sins we had committed, which had reduced us to a state of slavery.

He came to give us freedom from eternal death, another consequence of sin: freedom from the dominion of the devil, since man could now overcome sin with the help of grace. And finally, He gave us freedom from life according to the flesh, which is opposed to supernatural life: the freedom bought by Christ through the Holy Spirit, has restored to us the capacity, of which sin had deprived us, of loving God above all and of remaining in contact with Him.”

Alessandro Farnese (1468-1549) in The Sacred Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith (SCDF) as recounted in Instruction on Christian Freedom and Liberation, 53 (22 March 1986).

We must contemplate the generosity of Jesus as we think about what we will give ourselves to in 2025.

Look closely. He did not give Himself to political agendas. He did not fight for justice or social change. He did not seek to liberate His people from Roman oppression.

He had a bigger agenda. He wants us to have a bigger agenda as we move toward 2025.

In his day about 500 years ago, Farnese called the Church to focus on what the Child in the crib came to accomplish and to continue His mission. I am echoing that call with a focus on sharing life generously.

There are three words for life in Greek: bios, psychē, and zōe.

Bios points to physical life. People who give themselves this life focus on comfort. They fight for political justice and tend to demand what they think they deserve.

Psychē relates to feelings, affections, desires, and aversions. People who give themselves to this life aim for social change.

Zōe links to divine and supernatural life. It’s the uncreated, eternal life only found in God and also the life uniquely possessed by the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit.

If you want to spread the divine and supernatural life of God in 2025, please keep reading.

At GTP we multiply faithful stewards and help ministries to follow standards so they flourish. This increases the spreading of zōe exponentially.

To submit a grant to add 2-3 staff to serve underserved workers, we need to expand our support base.

Before funding us, a foundation wants to see more monthly givers. In November we only had 37 and needed to reach 100 by 31 December 2024. Then God supplied a matching grant.

GTP gets $100 for every monthly giver that starts their monthly giving by year-end.

We are up to 88 monthly givers. Praise God, but we need 12 more. Be one of the 12. Set up monthly giving at any amount. And position GTP to get a $500,000-$600,000 grant. That is not a typo!

Please set up monthly giving to GTP here. Strengthen GTP to spread zōe exponentially.

“He saved others,” they said, “but He cannot save Himself!” Matthew 27:42

“We know that in everything God works for good with those who love Him, including everything that seems to us piercingly inexplicable or incomprehensible. Nor must we forget that our greatest happiness and most authentic good are not always those which we dream of or long for.

It is difficult for us to see things in their true perspective; we can only take in a very small part of complete reality. We only see the tiny piece of reality that is here, in front of us. We are inclined to feel that earthly existence is the only real one and often consider our time on earth to be the period in which all our longings for perfect happiness ought to be fulfilled…

Our Lord did not change the laws of creation for His own benefit; He chose to be a man like us. He had the power to do away with suffering, but He never used that power for Himself. Although He worked miracles to feed the crowds, He Himself suffered hunger. He shared with us the experience of exhaustion or pain.

His soul tasted every bitterness: indifference, ingratitude, betrayal, slander, moral agony in its highest degree when He took upon Himself the sins of the world, the shameful death of the cross. His enemies were astonished by His incomprehensible behavior: He saved others – they said mockingly – He cannot save himself.”

Francis Fernandez in In Conversation with God: Meditations for Each Day of the Year, volume 1 (London: Scepter, 1993) 254-255.

Brace yourself. Today’s post is inexplicable and incomprehensible.

In church history, today is known widely as “the feast of the holy innocents” which remembers the killing of all the young children in Bethlehem ordered by King Herod in an attempt to kill the infant Jesus, a horrible atrocity.

In reflection, Fernandez reminds us that God works on a bigger scale than we can see.

So that means, when someone says to you that they don’t believe in God because there is so much suffering in the world, you can remind them of this: suffering exists because of the sin of humankind.

And when God became flesh, He endured suffering to bring an end to sin and accomplish our salvation.

But it does not stop there. We too get to sacrifice. We too get to suffer. We too get to have people look at us and say, “He saved others. He cannot save Himself.” And please, let me explain what I mean by this.

Following Jesus is a call to the same inexplicable and incomprehensible way of living.

When we live, give, serve, and love sacrificially, there are benefits we forgo so that others might benefit. There are hunger pangs we feel so that others may experience satisfaction. This is Christian generosity in its purest form.

Next time someone celebrates a billionaire giving a few million or a millionaire giving a few thousand, just yawn.

That’s not the sacrificial, hold-nothing-back generosity that Jesus celebrates, but rather surplus giving. Encourage them to give it all away and experience hunger and tastes what happens next.

It was 15 years ago that Jenni and I shifted our treasures from earth to heaven. What a ride it has been since then.

We have experienced plenty and need, health and cancer, joy and hardship. We have seen God pay medical bills and then supply more than we ever imagined for enjoyment and sharing. We took hold of life when we shifted from surplus giving to practicing generosity.

In the former, you give from your means. In the latter you share what God supplies. It’s way better.

And you get to experienced hardships too, which humbles you, keeps you dependent on God, and reminds you of His faithfulness. Looking to 2025, join us in living the inexplicable and incomprehensible generous Christian life.

And bad things may happen, like the innocents of Bethlehem, but we trust in our inexplicable and incomprehensible God.

He might engage you in saving many people. And He might ask you to sacrifice yourself. Do it. Your gain in the kingdom will likewise be inexplicable and incomprehensible.

That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9

When the members of the Sanhedrin heard this, they were furious and gnashed their teeth at him. But Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit, looked up to heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God. “Look,” he said, “I see heaven open and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God.” At this they covered their ears and, yelling at the top of their voices, they all rushed at him, dragged him out of the city and began to stone him. Meanwhile, the witnesses laid their coats at the feet of a young man named Saul. While they were stoning him, Stephen prayed, “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.” Then he fell on his knees and cried out, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them.” When he had said this, he fell asleep. Acts 7:54-60

“Yesterday we wrapped Christ in swaddling clothes; today, he clothes Stephen with the garment of immortality. Yesterday a narrow manger cradled the baby Christ; today the infinite heaven has received Stephen in triumph.”

Fulgentius of Ruspe (468-533) in Sermon 3.

I read this yesterday and it seemed fitting in light of our recent focus on Christ in swaddling clothes and lying in the manger. Take a moment and ponder the significance for each of us.

The day after Christmas is observed in the church calendar as the Feast of St. Stephen. It’s the day when we remember his triumphant service as the first martyr.

Consider the brevity of Stephen’s ministry. He gave one testimony before the Sanhedrin. He preached one sermon. He connected the dots for one audience. And that brief moment in history cost him his life.

But don’t miss the scene in heaven. Jesus stood at the right hand of the throne of God. The significance of this posture of service cannot be understated. Jesus worked, interceding for Stephen. Likewise He sees our service, stands and intercedes for us.

Also notice that Saul, who would become known as Paul watched all this unfold. That reminds us that God can convert even our most fierce opponents. See the triumph that awaits us. But we must risk everything to grasp it.

To live generously and triumphantly, we need to join the line. Two days ago, we celebrated that Christ came humbly to give His life as a ransom for many. Yesterday, we recall that Stephen gave his life as a martyr and witness to Christ.

And today is our day to give our lives in anticipation of the same triumph and immortality. Sadly, however, most people live only for this world and all it has to offer. What will you do? Jesus is watching.

The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned. Isaiah 9:2

“Jesus, Mary, and Joseph were alone. But God sought out simple people as their companions: some shepherds perhaps because, as they were humble, they would not be dismayed at finding the Messiah in a cave, wrapped in swaddling clothes.

It is to the shepherds of that district that the prophet Isaiah referred: those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness, on them a light has shone…

Naturally, the shepherds would not have set out without taking gifts for the baby. In the eastern world of those days it was inconceivable that anybody should present himself before a respected person without a gift.

They would take what they had: a lamb, cheese, butter, milk, and curd. Doubtless it is not far removed from reality to imagine the scene as portrayed in the countless cribs of our days and in the Christmas carols which Christians sing with simplicity and which many of us may have made the theme of our prayer.

Mary and Joseph, surprised and delighted, invite the shy shepherds to come in and see the child, to kiss him, to sing to him, and too leave their gifts beside the manger. Nor can we go to the cave of Bethlehem without taking our gift.”

F. M. Willan in Life of Mary, 110.

What gift would you bring to Jesus?

He does not need the latest gadget or article of clothing. He wants us, like Willan envisions, to bring what we have like the shepherds no doubt brought what they had.

The message of giving God what you have has transformed the people of Malawi.

Now over 3,000 churches encourage nearly 60,000 children to bring a palmful of maize to Jesus each Sunday. It’s solving hunger problems, leading the lost to faith, and growing the church. See here for yourself.

Willan shares his story of the shepherds and I shared about the children of Malawi. Now the light of Christmas shines on you.

What do you have? What would happen if you entered the cave, set by the manger, and gave Jesus a kiss declaring your adoration and allegiance? What might He do with what your gift?

I guess you have to give it to find out.