“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” Matthew 7:7
“I have gradually been coming to feel that the door is no longer shut and bolted. Was it my own frantic need that slammed it in my face? The time when there is nothing at all in your soul except a cry for help may be just the time when God can’t give it: you are like the drowning man who can’t be helped because he clutches and grabs. Perhaps your own reiterated cries deafen you to the voice you hoped to hear.
On the other hand, ‘Knock and it shall be opened.’ But does knocking mean hammering and kicking the door like a maniac? And there’s also ‘To him that hath shall be given.’ After all, you must have the capacity to receive, or even omnipotence can’t give. Perhaps your own passion temporarily destroys the capacity.
For all sorts of mistakes are possible when you are dealing with Him [that is, God]. Long ago, before we were married, H. was haunted all one morning as she went about her work with the obscure sense of God (so to speak) ‘at her elbow,’ demanding her attention. And of course, not being a perfected saint, she had the feeling that it would be a question, as it usually is, of some unrepented sin or tedious duty. At last she gave in—I know how one puts it off—and faced Him. But the message was, ‘I want to give you something, and instantly, she entered into joy.”
C.S. Lewis in A Grief Observed in The Complete C.S. Lewis Signature Classics (San Francisco: Harper One, 2002) 455.
Today’s post touched me.
We all struggle with various things in life, and COVID seems to have made things more complicated for most of us.
I am taking some time at a retreat to sit with God.
Rather than ask him to sort my challenges or do the proverbial talking, he nudged me just to listen to him, to receive from Him.
Can you relate to this today?
If so, I suggest you take some time to sit with God. Just receive whatever He has for you. Rest in this. It will be good because He is good.